It’s 1am and I should be asleep, but that doesn’t seem to be happening at the moment so I figured I’d write. It’s been a while. A very long while!
Ya know. it’s crazy how life works. At a time when I feel broken, not just mentally, but physically - more broken then I’ve ever felt...I received a message from an old friend I haven’t seen in many years telling me that I’m strong, brave and an inspiration. Those are not three adjectives that I would use to describe myself at the moment, but it means the world to me to know that’s how I’m perceived during this season. After I thought about her words, I realized, she’s right. I am all of those things, but nothing on my own! I’ve got an amazing support group of friends and family...and of course there’s God.
In all honesty, God is the only reason that anyone would be able to describe me as strong, brave or an inspiration. Since day one of this new chapter I’m in, I’ve had such a peace about things because I know who is really in control. I can Google everything in the world, go to the best doctors ever, get opinions from others and so on, but at the end of the day none of that matters because God’s got this. I know it may sound so cliche, but that’s honestly how I feel. Why should I fret about things I have no control over?
Does it hurt? Yes! But it also helps to know the healer AND that He will heal the hurt.
